This is what He does

I will edit this and post the rest soon (:
I am excited to start this blogpost and to share the wonderful things in my life, and most of all the amazing things God has and will be doing in my life!

Update! 3/4

Hello :) There's a specific position I've been applying for to help me determine whether the major I have in mind is something I actually want to do. So the past Thursday on February 27th I sent in my application for a job. I realized that I was able to look at my past applications from 2013, and I saw that they both got denied! I did not remember applying last year at all, but now knowing that was my third application I just knew that it would get denied again. Throughout the day I was doubting God and questioning Him. I felt that God was pushing me to apply for this position at this place, and that I was to get a chance some how at this job, but seeing my past applications was so discouraging. I lost hope in God and lost faith that my goals and interested did not matter.

My manager posted up this week's schedule and I saw that my hours are mainly 26-37 a week now. The position I applied for would give me better hourly pay but the weekly hours aren't as good as my current job. Selfish thoughts ran through my mind and I decided that I was going to pull back my job applications and just stick with my current employer. Which I really did not want to since the work load is basically labor, work experience is limited, and retail is just not for me. I could possibly move up to a new position where I could gain new experiences and knowledge but again, retail is not right for me and I no longer want to work under my current employer. But money meant so much more to me and I am pretty desperate. So I stuck with my decision to stay another year with my job.

But later that night after working I had received an email for a phone interview! And my heart just crushed. How could I have doubted my God? The One who provides, who's faithful and loves me? How could I believe the lie that He does not take interest in me? And wow, what a selfish person I am! I chose money over my goals, and my God's purpose for me? I immediately set a schedule for the phone interview... which was yesterday morning! It went well, and pretty quickly. I am now submitted into the second interview, and hoping that I am or one of the finalist to get in :)

I know, I did not get the job. But God really showed something to me... that I am a selfish jerk! xD And I feel terrible that through this He had to show me again that He loves, provides, cares, and supports me. I need to have faith and trust Him ALL THE WAY. I know He has plans for me, and I need to have faith that He is leading me somewhere wonderful! And I now know my struggle of loving money... -.-

Even if I don't get this job I am so thankful that God showed me all of this. I am sure and I know that He knows my goals, He knows my thoughts, and He knows my heart.

Ah, I'm in love with Him <3 I am so excited for this year to continue! I can't wait to see what God will be doing in my life, in others and the church.

What can you relate to this? (:
God bless, and have a wonderful day!

I'll write again soon!